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To slip into emptiness
A void without pain without misery
Where nothing in the past really happened
And nothing in the future will every be
To slip into dreams
Knowing I will wake into a sunless day that knows no joy
As a loveless eternity without you swallows me
So I sleep
And dream of blue eyes filled with a love unreturned
And the touch of a small hand so like my own
But even in my dreams the bitter tears follow
The resentment
An aching loneliness in the pit of my flaccid belly
As I realize
I had you and lost you
All in one day

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